Ok so Me.

I don’t know where to start to be honest with you.

I don’t do anything at the minute… I lost my job in December and now seem to have no desire to do anything. I’ve lost my way a little bit (again [as in this isn’t the first time] PAH) 

I like to have a smoke now and again… I don’t do it all the time because I really really really don’t like the smell I used too.

And sometimes like everyone I get a little down but with me a lot of people seem to jump on this as if I am going to do something stupid. 

In September 2009 something happened, something happened to me. Something now which has made me fearful, jealous and needy, something that was catastrophic to my development as a teenage boy. I got over it, emotionally but there is still something subconscious in the back of my mind which makes me this jealous, needy, narcissist. But saying this I wouldn’t be who I am today if this hadn’t happened. I’m glad it happened because I fought it and I grew because of it. 

So 2009 turned into 2010. I switched colleges and things then seemed to spiral out of control. I got Tumblr which helped, a little for a while and again 2010 rolled into 2011. In April 2011 I overdosed, ended up in hospital didn’t I. It took people quite a long time to notice that I wasn’t ok (these things you don’t tend to notice yourself and even if you do you ignore them)

So I under went a series of tests, psychological and psychiatric assessments until they found the answer and now they have its called Zyprexa, She’s my new best friend.

I’m a strong person now. At least I think I am.

Anyway carrying on with life. I lost the desire to pursue a career in Musical Theatre something I have wanted to do since I was 8 years old. For a while I was happy working in a call centre.

That very same day I met an Actor, and Actor which I loved. He convinced me to try again or at least to think about it. So here we are today. I want to go to Drama School.

I’m not really selling myself here but welcome to the world of Thomas.

An anxious young male that has a nervous disposition and a constant desire to please.